Dreaming proof

In a dream
you are two days ahead
A snack from home is
at the foot of the bed
Eating it I believe
you are home
My parents are changing
the furniture
bringing the bed
to living room
the kitchen is
now where the porch was

I think its a dream
I wake up to find you there
My brothers there too
still a kid
I ask him why he is so
says hes always been so
He came along with his BIL
and 40 other kids on an
express trip here

There are relatives
carrying food for them
I believe you are here
ignoring me

I want to walk away too
but cant too far

with the baby
getting hinged between
the bed her aunt is on
and the wall

with the baby
on a high swing
(who put her there?)
falling down
before I pull a chair
to get her down
she falls onto her
blanket

I wake up
You are still not here

Danger

I hold the baby down
to diaper
A black menacing cat
another mottled one
ready to pounce on
the baby
A dog too around
Strangely even in
their usual size
I seemed to hold
the baby
at their level

For a while
I mistook an older
baby for mine
leaving mine uncared
for and mangled

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A baby book says consider the undiapered baby armed and dangerous

Summer game

The game of Jackstraws by Jane Shore.
This game is similar to pick up sticks game which we played in summer holidays. Our landlord's grandson who was a summer bird, an ace at carrom board had this game with him.

Shofar

At first
Reuse

Somewhere
down
the
line
Tuskers are chased
Antlers are staged

Expectations

we dont know them
until unmet

of a person with
broken throat
to not rest
and scream his love

A long shoe string

My mom asks if it is mine
I say its too long to be a
shoestring

She takes it to her room
to see if it goes into
any of her clothes

Nope

It lies in the laundry
basket
waiting to be claimed

Can you create something
out of nothing?

With laundry I have only
seen things lost
except for the one time
I saw money fall out of the
washer

To get there its lost somewhere
which I happily never find out

Like when I put on an oxygen mask
somewhere I'm off of CO2 mask

It figures
it always does
its drawstring of my track pants

the ones I'm using as a
lean against the cold wall

Writing

The Russian doll by Jane Shore. I wonder if it is after a specific poem by Elder Olson.

The Russian dolls that I know are standalone. Inflated. Much like dibble toys. The biggest is as much as a kid. The dolls were stood outside the general store. So much of the internal conversation of Jane shore's poem is missed in these dolls still they could still hold onto whatever conversations they can carry looking at each other all the time.

I used to think that if you had too much time then you wouldnt have too many things to write. Now I see that as you write, associations lead you to so much more, that mere writing down what you want to write about might not capture all of it. Those amorphous thoughts which jane shore put into words very well in her poem.